My life

I thought if I said I believed that Jesus died on the cross and is my savior and really meant it, I would go to Heaven. And if I prayed at dinner, that was enough. So I had a pretty good relationship with God. I mean I prayed at dinner everynight at dinner and I said that I believed and truely meant it but I didn't feel complete.
I felt like I was missing half of me. Like I needed something but I wasn't sure what. Untill recently. My friend sent me a letter asking if I had a personal relationship with God. I wrote back, "Yeah, I have a personal relationship with God. Maybe not as much but yeah!" Then the day passed and I felt like the letter wasn't true or good enough. It was midnight and I wrote her back, the real way. I told her everything, even things I wouldn't tell anybody else, only God.
I ran downstairs and grabbed my home Bible and opened to Genesis. She told me she read from Psalms and Proverbs everynight, so I started to read. I read Genesis 1 and 2 and took a page full of notes. The next day we had homechurch because we didn't have Church because of the snow. I used to nod my head and occasionally look up and catch some words. But I really thinking, "When is this over? I'm sorta hungry. I should invite a friend over after. Maybe I should email somebody..." I wasn't interested!
Today I was. I didn't draw ONE thing on my paper. I listened, took notes and payed attention.
I'm on Genesis 7 now, it draws me back and I want to read more.

 God is really amazing. Do you have a personal relationship with God? You should, he can change you and is so amazing. I feel like God wanted my friend a letter because now I feel like I'm closer to God and I'm really learning about God and God knows it.
~Julia Grace~ 2.7.010